🌱Thinspo/Thinspiration
🌱Meanspo/Sweetspo
🌱Anorexia
🌱Eating Disorders
🌱Weightloss
🌱Fasting
🌱Diets
At this point I'm just kind of here. I don't promote anything, this is more like a personal journal that others can read if they like. If I disappear for a while, it means I’m gaining weight.
SW: 140 lbs CW: 130 lbs GW1: 130lbs GW2: 120lbs GW3: 110lbs UGW:100lbs
Not pro ED
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Photo by florenslilium on instagram
🌱Thinspo/Thinspiration
🌱Meanspo/Sweetspo
🌱Anorexia
🌱Eating Disorders
🌱Weightloss
🌱Fasting
🌱Diets
i’m looking to follow abt 400 more blogs and going thru my followers and looking for active ones or thinspo only ones was taking too long
following if u’re blog is anything like @inthinidation, @coloredskinny, or @skinny-reminders (my thinspo/weightloss blogs)

@ bellemjohnson on Instagram
💦 Because I overheat and sweat too much
😍 So pants and shorts will fit me
💁🏽 So I won’t be the ‘funny friend’ when she’s the ‘hot friend’
🙊 So I don’t feel guilty about how I look
💪🏽 So I don’t feel self-conscious at the gym
👗 So clothes shopping doesn’t make me cry
💕 So maybe someone will love me
🙏🏽 So maybe I will stop hating myself.
I’m struggling between “I have to starve, I wanna be fucking thin, someone should finally care” and “What tf are you doing? That’s just unhealthy, it’s not living, it’s existing. Just eat.”
And that’s why I’m permanently switching between binging & starving, that’s why I’m still weighing the same, that’s why I’ll never be thin.
I just have to want it hard enough.
I fucking can’t stand those thinspo posts that are like “imagine being so thin that you make all your friends and your little sisters hate themselves” like god damn that’s the last thing I want to do. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. Just because I hate my body doesn’t mean I want everyone else to.
That’s the OPPOSITE of what I want. I don’t want “other girls to envy me” I don’t want people to tell me to “eat a sandwich” I don’t want people to “be angry with me for being prettier” Like I don’t even want them to know. And all of those things are just going to make me feel worse. Those ideas are terrible. Also the fucking “make all the boys want to pick you up with ease” or “he’ll love you when you’re skinny” like. No. No he won’t. I don’t want him to. I want him to leave me alone. My relationships with other people have nothing to do with my weight and that’s the way it should be. If people are going to love me more when I’m skinny then I want nothing to do with them because they should have loved me equally when I was fat. Friends and family should love you no matter what weight you are. End of discussion.
Forever reblog
I reblogged this like four times in a row because this is really important to keep in mind
I fucking can’t stand those thinspo posts that are like “imagine being so thin that you make all your friends and your little sisters hate themselves” like god damn that’s the last thing I want to do. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. Just because I hate my body doesn’t mean I want everyone else to.
That’s the OPPOSITE of what I want. I don’t want “other girls to envy me” I don’t want people to tell me to “eat a sandwich” I don’t want people to “be angry with me for being prettier” Like I don’t even want them to know. And all of those things are just going to make me feel worse. Those ideas are terrible. Also the fucking “make all the boys want to pick you up with ease” or “he’ll love you when you’re skinny” like. No. No he won’t. I don’t want him to. I want him to leave me alone. My relationships with other people have nothing to do with my weight and that’s the way it should be. If people are going to love me more when I’m skinny then I want nothing to do with them because they should have loved me equally when I was fat. Friends and family should love you no matter what weight you are. End of discussion.
Forever reblog